Turning Over A New Leaf

First off, i haven't blogged in so LONG && i don't really know why i haven't but he here we go now. Second thing is I miss school so much right now. I know it's a bit weird that I'm saying this because while i was in school i would always say i can't wait to be out. But now its different because it's college and i know so many who are in school and if they aren't in school they're working. Me on the other hand, I'm doing neither. Couldn't go to school because i didn't have the money to pay for since i lost my fin.aid (which was my fault in the first place) and I'm not not working because no one wants to hire me. I did have a job for a week though. But i mean, I'm a 19 year old young women, i don't want to be sitting in a room on a phone trying to get people to do a survey. If I'm going to be working i need to be up on my feet moving around having face-to-face interactions with people outside my co-workers. And that job wasn't paying enough for what they wanted us to do anyway. Hopefully, i will get a job soon so i can start something new. Right now i just feel like I'm doing nothing but taking up space in the world. Even thought that really isn't true because in all actuality i do a lot. I clean our apartment, I take care of my niece while her mother is at work, i cook, and whenever something needs to be done I'm the one that does it. i just want to be doing something for MYSELF. I want to make my OWN money, have my OWN apartment, pay my OWN bills and have all the nice things to show for it. Don't get me wrong i don't really need all the nice things, i never had it before and i don't need it no. I'm thankful and blessed for what i do have but i just want them because i feel i deserve them. my mind wanders so much through out the day, all i do is think of ways that i could accomplish so much more in my life. The first thing i need to take care is the money because without it i can't really do much. For some reason i can't seem to get a JOB. I've apply to so many place's I've lost count and only a few people set up an interview with me but i never got a call back. hopefully sometime soon i will FINALLY get a job so i can save my money up for school. Which brings me to another problem. Since i lost my fin.aid and I'm broke i can't go to school which sucks. and i don't really have to man options for school right now anyway. i wont to go back to UNLV but it cost way to much right now and i can't go to CSN because ima run into to many problems with the fin.aid info so it would be a lot easier to go back to UNLV. Going back their has other problems to; it's to expensive, and i guess i owe them money for some odd reason which means my records are on hold so i can't do to much. I want to just wait it out and just take the rest of the school year off and try to work but then again I miss school way to much to do that. Also, I'm thinking about leaving Vegas for awhile. I don't know where i want to go for sure just yet but i do know where ever it is I'll be in school for sure. My top options are Georgia and California. Sometimes i just feel like saying for get it and just move out of state somewhere and start COMPLETELY OVER. I really don't know what to do. It scares me sometimes then i get to feeling like I'm dumb, stupid and never going to make anything of myself and it makes me want to cry. The worst thing is it's hard to talk about this with anyone. I want to so bad but when the opportunity knocks i don't answer. I pray to God that i figure something out because if not I'm afraid I'm going to become some crazy depressed person and lose everyone i love...... :( i just don't know anymore.

-R.Woods

p.s. i promise the next post won't be so depressing

Long Time, No Post

Yea it been a min since i've posted anything. So this will just a little quick thing. So 1st off mississippi was great. I LOVE the counrty && the people. Glad i got to meet the fam i bnever knew about, && i found i out i have another set of twin cousins. lol. Everything was cool with th trip, can't wait to go back but next time im going on a plain (24hrs on the road is a no no). 2nd school started monday, i went the first and never went back. not that i didnt like it but i just figured i needed a change in my educational environment so thats what in the process of doing. Hopefully i'll be ablle to start school in Oregon at the end of September but we'll see how all that goes. But umm yea thats it for now i guess. LATERZ!!

R.Woods<3

Ready To Go..

So im goin to mississippi tomorrow morning until the 17th. i so can't wait to go && meet my other fam. i think its so kool how i get to meet my great grandpa && he's only 86..i think LOL. but its good to be able to finally meet all these people who i have never met before. im so excited. but then again its a bitter-sweet moment because my babe is leaving for school before i get back :(, so i wont see him for some months. but its kool i'll deal with that in some way. well these next few weeks will be interesting, crazy, and hopefully fun. first, its the mississippi trip, then when i get back a have to get ready for school aka UNLV pt.2, then its back to school on the 24th. ready to get this thing started LOL. can't wait!! well i'm done now next blog wont be ti i get back. so yea...

-LATERZ
R.WOODS

Yea So..

Haven't posted anything since Monday so yea.. here goes. Watching Family Guy with the FAM BAM. Why is this show so funny?? even the reruns be having people rolling LOL. Only 5 days til my our trip to Mississippi, super excited && i can't wait. Its also only 19 days til college part 2 lol. Kinda can't wait for that either. I dnt kno why I'm so excited about college when i wasn't to excited about highschool except for like the first day of school. then i jus couldn't wait to get out that bizzie. lol. but i do miss my highschool buddies but their all off doing their own little thing with school && im proud of those kidds. I can't wait til i get to experience leaving for college && coming back home to visit lol. but that wont happen for another five months or so when i go to CALI to run track. super happy about that to. finally get to continue doing what i LOVE && be the true TRACKSTAR that i am. well thats it for now, im off to go do something else productive with this life of mine.



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LATERZ

-R.WOODS<3

A well needed laugh..

Check out this Video (jus go to the site && click the video with this title then subscribe..if you want)
Where's My Mother's Clam Chowder?
by Timiya
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Love this, he's so funny but always sayn some real stuff..

i'll put this video on my blog in a few tho but check him out..

LATERZ
-R.WOODS<3

Random Spit

GUESS WHAT?? LOVE sucks && its one of those things you jus can't help but to think about. HMM..i wonder why this FREAKiN song is stuck in my head [say yes_pleasure p]. but umm back to this LOVE thing. i hate it "( but hey thats just how it works in this thing called LIFE. oh well my hearts going to another state while i stay back in the hot asz veg "/. but i guess all that matters is i made a promise && ima most definetly keep it. && another i so need to learn how to deal with mutual break ups "/. well i'll always have my music ").

LATERZ kidds

-R.WOODS<3

VEGAS && SUMMER

why is it so freaking hot in VEGAS?? i was outside for all of 20 mins && got back in house and was burning the HELL up. this is actually the perfect day to go swimming but i don't trust our apartments pool. to many people in at one time for me. i think i need to get away from the vegas life for awhile. maybe CALI or MISSISSIPPI. even though there's no place like home && there really isn't any place like vegas (i mean 24hrs people, it gets no better), i feel i need to be in new enviorment && around some new people. i'll just go where ever track takes me. but first i need to get my skinny asz back in track shape then i'll be back to the trackstar i am at heart, LOL. i guess im jus getting a little bored with this summer. i really can't wait til my fam trip to mississippi and til schoo starts. hmm well ii.dee.kay. im done for now. LATERZ!!

countdown:: oxford, ms-->> 1 week ; back to UNLV-->> 3 weeks..YAY!!

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-R.Woods<3